Being a mom is hard. Some days it is harder than others. Much.
At least for me.
I feel like I am too often reacting with out thinking and then having to give an example. I feel like I’m not setting a good example of how I want my children to act. I feel like I’m not good enough. I feel like there isn’t enough time in the day to do all the things I should do but I don’t know where to make cuts. I feel like one of my children truly dislikes another of my children. I feel like I always need to apologize for something. I feel like I’m failing in my role.
I’m not writing this so you will tell me that I am being too hard on myself. I’m not writing for compliments on what I do.
I’m writing as therapy. I need to record my thoughts, so I can suck it up and move on. So I can make some goals and reevaluate. So I can greet my kids at the door in a half hour with a smile and a snack. So I can do my best to teach and nurture and love and protect and enjoy my kids.
What do you do when you’re having days like mine?
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put the kids to bed early, say a good prayer, grab a melatonin (mint flavored! chewable! from Trader Joe's!) and go to bed early, knowing that when I wake up, things will be better.
love you!
Oh, how I know these days. I am, in fact, having one today. I yelled REALLY REALLY loud at my children this afternoon. Really loud. And I think a neighbor might have heard me while anonymously dropping off cookies.
What do I do? Well, I apologize. I try really hard to be nice. I get take out for dinner (soup and bread from a sandwich shop tonight) so I don't have to try to cook while supervising homework.
I complain and cry. I veg after the kids go to bed.
I hope for a brighter day tomorrow.
And usually, I start my period 3 days later. :)
put their names on slips of paper and have them draw names. They get to do an act of service for the person whose name they drew.
I think it is great you wrote this down. Because honestly, your daughter will want to read about days like this when she's having a bad day of her own in the not too distant future.
You are so sweet and so honest and so human. I'm honest and human, and not so sweet. Sound like you've received good advice. Pray; look back over past wonderful pictures you've taken; get involved in one of your projects or a good book after the kids are in bed; drink Pero (see below); call or email a friend; better yet blog to your friends. Know we all feel like that at times. I'm so there with a child now. Have been trying so hard to have peace and faith amid the chaos and poor choices...then I lost my patience AGAIN! Then we somehow make it to the next day. Somehow. And go on the retreat this weekend!
p.s. from your last cocoa post—
I drink hot Pero mixed with unsweetened cocoa, splenda and FF half and half. A totally caffeine free fake mocha latte I learned from my sis in law. Can't read scriptures without it : )
Hang in there, honey. You are doing a good job. Put them to bed, and tomorrow is always a better day. Don't beat yourself up. See the good in all that you're doing.
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